[ when he grabs her, she almost wants to pull away as she screams and shouts. she refuses to believe it... why would anybody like someone so confusing as her, anyway? and for someone she likes to like her back -- it's happened before, but she's definitely been rejected more times. a cute guy from middle school gives her a love letter? she swoons and starts thinking about their future together.
until she realises that the letter isn't even for her, but for her best friend.
so this is another one of those dreams that happen while she's still awake. she knows the kiss is real, though. merlin said it himself, but...
she's so in denial.
her emotions as so all over the place too, and it shows with how widget switches himself off. now it looks like she has a black pendant hanging on her neck. she's feeling light, and not in a good way. she just wants to lay down and close her eyes to try and relax. but it doesn't seem likely right now... not like this. . . why couldn't she just run away? she's said her piece, and maybe iris and yu would be happy. and she wishes she could be happy too, but she refuses to. not when she could mess things up again. not when she could literally hurt him again. ]
Don't. . . [ she tugs on his shirt, averting eye contact. ] go, okay? I'll listen.
[ please still be her friend even if she's an emotional trainwreck. ]
I ALMOST REPLIED WITH MY YATA JOURNAL fadksgsr
until she realises that the letter isn't even for her, but for her best friend.
so this is another one of those dreams that happen while she's still awake. she knows the kiss is real, though. merlin said it himself, but...
she's so in denial.
her emotions as so all over the place too, and it shows with how widget switches himself off. now it looks like she has a black pendant hanging on her neck. she's feeling light, and not in a good way. she just wants to lay down and close her eyes to try and relax. but it doesn't seem likely right now... not like this. . . why couldn't she just run away? she's said her piece, and maybe iris and yu would be happy. and she wishes she could be happy too, but she refuses to. not when she could mess things up again. not when she could literally hurt him again. ]
Don't. . . [ she tugs on his shirt, averting eye contact. ] go, okay? I'll listen.
[ please still be her friend even if she's an emotional trainwreck. ]