[ she can't help but think that way. she's tired of being protected, really. it's upsetting to her how she can't fight or she has no special powers or whatever. the only thing she has going for her is that she doesn't give up easily, her resilience.

she stabs the piece of cake she's sliced, though she doesn't put it in her mouth yet. ]

I just don't want others getting in trouble anymore. I'm-- [ fine... but that's a lie. ] I'll be fine, no matter what.

My boss told us to smile and never give up at the hardest of times, so I have to keep smiling and make sure the people around me are okay. [ and she doesn't want to make people upset, which is why she tends to hide what happens to her. in fact, her recent death was something she's only told a couple of people. ] But I'll try my best not to think that way. I know it's a skewed way of thinking.

[ she puts the cake in her mouth and smiles. there's nothing wrong going on here, nope. ]